To the never end

So, I grew up always wanting more, dreaming of who I'd be-so much bigger and bolder than my life was at the time. Extraordinary....the ordinary life was not for me. I dreamed of being a fashion designer, speaking different languages, living somewhere different...somewhere out of the ordinary. Something that wasn't just the norm, doing something not EVERYONE did, living somewhere not everyone lived...not normal. And not in a weird way just in a, well in an extraordinary way. I have now come to that point in my life where I would be doing this...but I'm not, nothing every happened. Don't get me wrong I've had some neat experiences but I'm 35 and I'm just doing normal...ordinary. Perhaps there is a lesson in there somewhere, something profound that I'm supposed to learn like the basis of life is not what you've done it's who you've worshipped or glorified, it's not that I should be extraordinary but that He is. While profound not necessarily lessons I've taken to heart...maybe I should but then is letting go of the dreams I've had, things I desired..is it time to let go? Is that giving up hope or just a redirection in purpose or worship? Any thoughts?