Hmmm

So, I read a post by a friend I liked it so much I thought I'd give a try. She was talking about trying to be someone else's beautiful instead of your God created beauty-so what's your God given beauty? Mine, I love to create, I love looking at something and tweaking it or just creating something from my own hands. I love design, I love going into a fabric store and seeing all the beautiful possibilities. I love possibility, what could be....I love art, dance, I truly love people and finding out about them...their story. I love helping, taking care of people. I do love fashion. Unlike my friend who has beautiful curly hair I have undecided hair, neither curly or straight-kinda like my life eh? I LOVE telling people about the truth in God's Word and the power that is in that, and seeing the joy in their eyes in their lives when they GET IT!!!! I can be a people pleaser, which is not what God meant for me. I get stressed and overwhelmed on a daily basis and right now I feel like a lousy Christian coming to realize a sin in my life that I am unwilling to let go of :(. See, just like I sometimes try to copy the beauty of someone else in my own appearance I have altered the true appearance of God, exchanging His true beauty for one I've created. Well, so here I sit. So, who are you? What is your God given beauty?

To the never end

So, I grew up always wanting more, dreaming of who I'd be-so much bigger and bolder than my life was at the time. Extraordinary....the ordinary life was not for me. I dreamed of being a fashion designer, speaking different languages, living somewhere different...somewhere out of the ordinary. Something that wasn't just the norm, doing something not EVERYONE did, living somewhere not everyone lived...not normal. And not in a weird way just in a, well in an extraordinary way. I have now come to that point in my life where I would be doing this...but I'm not, nothing every happened. Don't get me wrong I've had some neat experiences but I'm 35 and I'm just doing normal...ordinary. Perhaps there is a lesson in there somewhere, something profound that I'm supposed to learn like the basis of life is not what you've done it's who you've worshipped or glorified, it's not that I should be extraordinary but that He is. While profound not necessarily lessons I've taken to heart...maybe I should but then is letting go of the dreams I've had, things I desired..is it time to let go? Is that giving up hope or just a redirection in purpose or worship? Any thoughts?