Bueller...Bueller....

Deep sigh....(I'm not sure how to spell this, but wanted to express it).  Man, just when you think you have got it together-or at least mentally together-it seems to all fall apart again.  Here we are back in our despair-hang with me I'm an emoter so everything is dramatic-with no foreseeable change or answer.  While we are and have learned a lot through this process, I-we, are so ready for answers a plan we are living not waiting for, a life-course.  Sorry, I am really hurting here.  It has felt like one goal/game plan chasing after another with no end-you know how it feels like everyone else is on course or settled and you never are-never have your stuff together.  I say you know BC I am hoping that this is true, we aren't the only ones, all though it feels that way as people get or keep jobs that provide and bless them as they seem fulfilled in life.  While this life seems so scattered for us, so unsettled.  I know this world is fallen and I cannot expect perfection or heaven here-not looking for that.  just direction.  At a young age we both felt, separately, led to vocational ministry.  There is no place for this in our life now, not that we don't want it, it's like everything in our life is a shut door.  Where is our opportunity that just comes together seamlessly?  Where is our open door?  What are we supposed to be following?  Which path?  I mean at this time there doesn't even seem to be choices.  Do I sound sad?  Defeated?  Well I am-we are.  Being the person I am I want that one person to step out of my life and say, "oh hey, by the way, I really feel like you should do this-pursue this path"  "or I feel God wants you to do this".....I'm waiting....Anyone, Anyone....bueller :).  Nothing.  I am failing at truly expressing this well or with any wisdom whatsoever-not that I have any.  I really have come to that point in my life where I realize I bring nothing to the table-now before you think I've gone off the deep end of depression (I haven't don't worry)-I've just realized that without God I truly am nothing.  He has given me gifts, attributes, talents and then He sanctifies me-but on my own-nothing.  I am not belittling myself, I promise.  So, here's my cry.  If you feel so led you can pray for us-or even better in my mind if God gives you an answer let us know :).